im a girl, yeah i am. :D haha !
well, im 21 years old basically, im an asian and im proud of it. :D im the youngest in the family and well, that is enough to prove that i am clingy :D im taking up Dentistry as my future carrier and now, im blessed to be in the 3rd year, Doctor of Dental and Surgery student. :D and i smile a lot !
i am no one without God, and yea basically, my location is in Malaysia, in Kualalala Lumpur . im proudly presenting myself as a christian !
and btw, i am a lazy ass, sleeping all day long is my part time hobby and i hate books. but i still read books to pass my exams :D i rely fully on God, and i am still scared of the monster under my bed. so what ? that makes sense why i prefer sleeping on the floor than on the bed.. one more, i dont play chess at all. thats a fact.
oh btw, i believe in karma sometimes.
Follow me on twitter : @RuranRachel :)
a few days back ago, i was wishing that i could go online and start posting things about how i felt, my emotions and stuffs, but lo and behold, i was too busy with exams and i had no time to commit suicide. haha kidding ! i mean, i had the chicks to go and online today and face it Rachel! life sucks.suck it back and teach life, who’s the boss now !? then, as i was going through my texts today, i wanted to remind myself, how bad Douglas treated me once upon a time. i mean, he was good and nice and all, and who knows ?! he was hurting me in a different way. he told me that he didn’t want to tell me what was going on, but, lawa la kau ging, bule pula kau fikir sa begitu kan. he said, im a quitter. hold your thoughts boy, i fight the fight worth fighting for. i dont simply i love you sampai mati. of course it was painful for me to suddenly get a guy in life who really likes me for who i am, but then, it was also painful to be treated like an option. sakit bila di hakimi. then, yeap. he finally knew what happened after we fought, he finally asked and clarify things with me. and of course, it was painful for me and for him. it reminded him how bad he treated a girl, and it reminded me not to trust guys anymore. trust me, everyone who comes your way, HAS THEIR OWN BAGGAGES, so, quit asking me if im single or not. yes i am single, but my heart is not a toy for you to flip like a coin. plus, we dont have any future together, we are just merely acquaintance with history. tadaaa. i am hurting myself again. it seems like that. because, i keep on thinking about him, i kept on wishing if he could just ask me out. because that was what he said to me. let me make it up to you. lets go out on a date once. and i said ‘OKAY’ silly me. silly silly me. i clearly need a clear state of mind. what was i thinking !? Rachel ! are you insane ?! he talked to me last last week, he said he wanted to meet up with me and talk. and i know, he meant dating. because, few times he asked me on a date, i said, we are not dating. we are outing. so, i told him, i might not meet him anymore because of circumstances. he said “owh, okay” and last week, i was so vulnerable, i was so sick of studying, so sick of being a dentistry student in mahsa university. this place pushes the hell out of me. so, somehow, i talked to him. and now i really regret that i talked to him. most of the time, he would be the one who would talk to me. but that night, it was like a one night stand for my brain. now its messing with my mind. and even in my studies, i was studying about breast today. and guess what? there is this thing called “pouch of Douglas” what the hell is his name doing in anatomy ?! oh mannnn.. it was really distracting and disturbing. and i told him last Sunday,since i met him on Sunday, that we shouldn’t be texting each other often. it will hurt me again. and every single night, he texts me Goodnight. and it turned into a long, long, goodnight chat. i hate myself too. i know you guys would say “omg Rachel ! stop being stupid!!” i knowww !! i want tooooo.. help me ? and friday, saturday, and today, Sunday, he havent texted me anything yet. God ! thank you.. part of me waiting for his texts. girls, can you guys help me figure this out, i mean, i do not know what i want, i do not know what i’m doing. Best Regards, me myself and i the confused creature named Rachel. adios !
You’ll actually know. They’ll take the time to talk to you and be with you. They’ll love you truly and unconditionally even with all your flaws. They’ll never give up on you through thick and thin and will fight for you until the very end. When you’re having a really crappy day, they’ll do anything just to make you smile. If someone really loves you, they’ll do all this and more. Cherish them and never take them for granted.